I Didn't Know

If I had only known that the decisions my immature pretending to be mature brain would make when I was 17 would change the whole course of my life, I would never have made them.

If I had only known that day 20 years ago if I put my toes on that first rung of that Greyhound bus's ladder that I would not see your sweet faces again for 16 years, I would not have touched it.

If I had only known that my love for one person would change the feelings for me of those around me, I would never have loved him.

But I didn't know.